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I did suggest he goes to a GP long ago because why does he feel the need to nap so much. His napping has become so much part of him that now even his family joke about like 'ah is he napping again'. On weekends he can sleep in for ages and will expect me to wake up and deal with kids. Sometimes the kids go to him and I don't stop them and he gets all mad that I'm sending them in to wake him up. I don't want to sound horrible but I actually think my day is way more tiring than his by farrr!
Today I've had a particularly hard day. I've been up since 5-6, my LO keeps whining and crying. He was suppose to take the day off from work today as we were away last night but instead gave me excuses he forgot but I don't believe that. If I hand him the baby during his 'work hours' for short periods it's such a big deal and he will make me feel like he's doing me a favour or then complain I don't let him work when he's working all the fucking time. I make lunch for all of us and then I see him take his plate to the kitchen and sneakily go into the room and shut the door. I just wanted to lose my shit! I go in pretending to get something and he's on his phone all tucked in and I made it obvious that I'm not happy at all. He picked up the bad vibes and got up and I took baby and went to sleep with her.
In all my years with him, from being so madly in love and never seeing an imperfection in him. I am now at a point, where I don't even fancy spending time with him and everything he does just distresses me right now. I don't think he's considerate of me at all and he thinks I'm just moody or unreasonable. Goes on about having time for him (joking or not I don't even know).
I am just sleep deprived, unwell and think everything is just piling up on me. I am struggling to cope!
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